Tears, tears,tears

Tears are the funniest things sometimes. They come rushing down the face at some of the most surprising times. Like just now. I was sitting at the computer writing a speech that’s due in a few hours (my usual last minute panic prep), when an e-mail pops up. It’s a notification from the Alliance for Lupus Research. Another donation has been sent to the spring Walk with Us to cure lupus by a facebook friend, minutes…sheer minutes…after I reached out and asked for my friends to read my personal page and make a donation. I know people care. I have no doubt about that. But sometimes I forget just how caring people REALLY are. How fast they respond when you simple, ask. I often forget to ask. I always think I can do it all. All by myself. I realized before I couldn’t. When my daughter literally lay dying. I asked for help then. And I got it. I got it from people who visited. Who prayed. From people I knew. And those whom I had never met. And most importantly, from God.  But the tears today are because one of the people who was with her then, isn’t now. The tears today are for someone whom I met since, with lupus, has died. The tears today are for the people who still care enough to give. Simply because I asked.  And I appreciate sooooo much that I can cry because some of these tears are also joyous ones. I have my daughter. I have my friends. I am blessed. And even in the hardest of times, I know faith gets us through. I’m grateful for the tears, because today, they made me write again.
P.S.
If you’d like to participate in this year’s walk to cure lupus, come out and be on MY team. I’d welcome you. And I can’t promise I won’t cry when I see how supportive you can be and the large numbers that can possbly show up!
Sunday, June 7, 2009  Walker check-in:9am  Walk starts at 10, rain or shine.    Atlantic Health Jets Training Centers at      1 Jets Drive,    Florham Park, NJ       log onto    walk.lupusresearch.org  for more info   then click  onto  alliance for lupus research, make a donation and type in my name.  I’ll see you there. I’ll be the one smiling through the tears.